I See You {A poem to my younger self}

I see you bracing yourself by the door

As life shattered on the floor.

How is this fair?

Gasping for air.

It won’t be like this forever.

I see you lying in bed,

Thoughts racing through your head.

Begging for sleep.

Instead, you just weep.

It won’t be like this forever.

I see you show others you're okay.

Always been your forte.

Easing this heavy blow

For those that you know.

You don't have to be brave forever.

I see them wheeling you--foggy.

Through surgery, but you’re groggy.

Sliced, and then stapled;

Muscles now disabled.

It won’t be like this forever.

I see you overwhelmed by the love.

They're helping you rise above.

Let it in. Soak it up.

Let them fill your empty cup.

You won’t be like this forever.

I see you scared half to death.

But you stand up, take a breath.

Walking in quaky,

Shivering, and shaky.

This won’t last forever.

I see you blinking back tears

While drowning in fears.

Chemo in IV.

Can’t bear to see.

It won’t be like this forever.

I see you thrashing in pain

That is beyond insane.

Hacksaw to the knees;

Writhing to break free.

It won’t feel like this forever.

I see you asleep, medicated.

Alive, but devastated.

Tear-stained cheeks.

How many more weeks?

It won’t be like this forever.

I see you maintaining composure

To deflect your exposure.

Just fall apart,

And open your heart.

You won't feel like this forever.

I see you standing over there.

Big, sad eyes, thinning hair.

Broken and bruised.

So lost and confused.

You won’t be like this forever.

I see you moving your feet;

Swaying to the beat.

Escaped for a night

So your heart could take flight.

You won't have to do this forever.

I see you crumbling

Through this giant rumbling.

What if falling apart

Is the perfect fresh start?

It won’t feel like this forever.

I see you breaking

Through the brave that you’re faking.

Hair falls to the floor.

Heart breaks even more.

It won’t feel this hard forever.

I see you look in the mirror;

Eyes filling with tears.

Puffy and pale,

Yet skinny and frail.

You won’t be like this forever.

I see you doing your best,

Forgetting the rest.

Head down pushing through;

Feeling black and blue.

You won't feel like this forever.

I see you run when it’s done.

A dust trail in the sun.

Get out of here fast.

Leave it all in the past.

You won’t feel like this forever.

I see you holding a shield

Pretending you’ve healed.

Drop the charade.

Stop the masquerade.

You can’t go on like this forever.

I see you all reflective

Pondering, introspective.

The dots must connect.

You’ll find self-respect.

It won’t feel this hard forever.

I see you finding your heart;

Learning to love all your parts.

It can feel so hard

When you feel broken and scarred.

It won’t feel like this forever.

I see you finding your voice.

Speaking up is a choice.

Struggle has departed.

Wisdom now imparted.

You can grow from this forever.

I see you finding resolution.

Your next evolution.

Back to where it all started

Deep breath; open-hearted. You can learn from this forever.

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About the Author:​

Kristin Pierce loves chai lattes, inspirational quotes, writing in coffee shops, and questioning beliefs. She is an award-winning author and a self-awareness educator whose mission is to empower others to deconstruct the limiting beliefs that are keeping them small and stuck in order to rise to their potential, come alive, and impact the world. Kristin is the Founder of Inner Compass Academy and Inner Compass Books. She is a MindScape Instructor, Advanced BodyTalk Practitioner, Registered Massage Therapist, & Children's Book Author. Stay tuned for her upcoming memoir, My Cosmic Hammer.

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